Martha Routh letter to Thomas Rotch, Warrington 2nd mo 18th 1799

               
  B-167-2
                       Warrington 2nd mo 18th 1799
                   How pleasant my endeared Frd, when all
  hope and expectation were cut of; was it to me to receive a
  letter from thee; and if I have in any wise been the cause of
  depriving myself of such a satisfaction, by not making the re-
  quest, forgive me this wrong; and be assured in future, that
  whenever thou feels the least opening for such communication,
  it will not fail of acceptance, unless a mournful change
  should be wrought in me; which I fervently pray the God
  and Father of all our Mercies, may never be the case.
  And now shall I tell thee a little of those feelings, which for
  =cibly penetrated the secret recesses of my heart? on becoming
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  a little acquainted with the unknown relatives, the honour-
  =able heads, I had had a longer knowledge of; that here was
  not one among the number, I found a stronger inclination to
  be united [illegible] three=fold bond of Body, soul, and spi-
  =rit, than to thyself: and for what cause it might be per=
         whether with, or
  =mitted or without any foundation I am yet a loss to ascer-
  tian; but I could not help conceiving; and that from one time
  to another; thou stood aloof from me; and tho' there hath